LATVIA

oohhh... home sweet home. For one week Latvia was a soft pillow for me- a place where i could hide from all that is bad, a place where i could sleep as much as i wanted to. A place where i felt huged ALL THE TIME.
parties untill the early morning light (which wasnt hard, because sunrise is around 4 o'clock already).

returning, of course, brings opposite emotions. i'm brought back, landed. BUT i know how to put on a happy face, i have learned how to put myself up on two feet.

W - double u

SONG FOR TODAY:

nina simone- feeling good

the doors we open and close

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again

Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand
In a...desperate land

Lost in a Roman...wilderness of pain
And all the children are insane
All the children are insane
Waiting for the summer rain, yeah

There's danger on the edge of town
Ride the King's highway, baby
Weird scenes inside the gold mine
Ride the highway west, baby

Ride the snake, ride the snake
To the lake, the ancient lake, baby
The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake...he's old, and his skin is cold

The west is the best
The west is the best
Get here, and we'll do the rest
The blue bus is callin' us
The blue bus is callin' us
Driver, where you taken' us

The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and...then he
Paid a visit to his brother, and then he
He walked on down the hall, and
And he came to a door...and he looked inside
Father, yes son, I want to kill you
Mother...I want to...fuck you

C'mon baby, take a chance with us
C'mon baby, take a chance with us
C'mon baby, take a chance with us
And meet me at the back of the blue bus
Doin' a blue rock
On a blue bus
Doin' a blue rock
C'mon, yeah
Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die

This is the end

my new favorite man

Tom Waits

this song I'll sing for u

Noliecies pie zemes tik stīvs,
Viena roka vijole, otrā – vīns.
Nodurtu galvu, bez krekla
Lūdzošā balsi dzied.
Dziesma beidzas. Piegāju klāt.
Viņš negribēja runāt, bet es piespiedu sākt
Pretējās acīs bij skumjas,
Manās acīs – kauns.
Nē, tā nav,
Neviens nevar būt tik brīvs.
Nē, tā nav.
“Tad klausies”, viņš teica, “šo dziesmu es dziedāšu Tev”
Pieliecos tuvāk,
Gandrīz kā tēvs līdzi just,
Vīns bija stiprāks par pratu,
Bet viņa prāts nedomāja zust.
Tikai vienreiz viņš grib dzirdēt kā šauj,
Smagos zābakos pacelties debesīs brīvs.
Pielīst kādam gandrīz klāt un teikt:
“Paldies. Esmu palicis dzīvs.”

/prata vetra/

chk plak tak tuk dam pam bsdkjfvhbl

I CAN'T STAND THE RAIN

Diane Arbus 'Identical Twins' main picture for her exhibition here in Scottish National Gallery of Modern Art in Edinburgh. And I went to meet the original.. of course

This is picture (u have seen me publishing) i took when I walked the streets of Valencia and didn't know who is Diane Arbus. I just liked these magical twins that followed me and now they r living on my rooms wall.

19 - 26

I'll be a Latvian girl

how the secret place is dressed like

happy place/ place happy

i didnt even knew that edinburgh can have soul, but now i know for shure- she have.. very live, insiring and secret.....

what modern walls say (or scottish national gallery of moder art)

baby scene

this is not a dog, woman pulling, but our future generation. i am very shocked how they nanny babies here- like animals without any connection to them, or truth would be that they treat them as they are treated? could they ask from these children to grow up as decision making and their own way finding grown ups... i think no.. doesnt seem like that.
Just cant understand this. well... it is certainly easyer for this woman, but are people thinking just one step forward these days??
I will treat my child like equal, so i lern how to love myself. every day more and more. and i will learn how to love my childs father endlessly, one day.

..IS YEllOW

blue.love

re.creation

my alcohol

Yeah o yeah you seen me walk
On burning bridges
Yeah o yeah you seen me fall
In love with witches
And you know my brain is held
Inside by stitches
Yet you know I did survive
All of your lovely sieges

And you know that I'll pick up
Every time you call
Just to thank you one more time
Alcohol
And you know that I'll survive
Every time you come
Just to thank you one more time
For everything you've done

Alcohol
Alcohol

And I'm sorry some of us
Given you bad name
yeah o yeah, cause without you
Nothing is the same
Yeah o yeah i miss you so
Every time we break up
Just to hit a higher note
Every time we make up

Who's crawlin' up my spine - alcohol
I've been waiting long long time - alcohol
Now you teach me how to rhyme - alcohol
Just don't stab me in the back with cartisol

Now we reunite - alcohol
And forever be divine - alcohol
Screw a light bulb in my head - alcohol
may that ceremony be happy or sad...

GOGOL BORDELLO

When there's a trap set up for you
In every corner of this town
And so you learn the only way to go is underground
When there's a trap set up for you
In every corner of your room
And so you learn the only way to go is through the roof

Ooohoohoooh through the roof, underground

And as we're crossing border after border
We realize that difference is none
It's underdogs who, and if you want it
You always have to make your own fun

And as the upperdog leisurely sighing
The local cultures are dying and dying
The programmed robots are buying and buying
And all secluded freaks they are still trying trying

Ooohoohoooh through the roof, underground

And as the boy scouts learn to read between the lines
The silver rabbits hop between their fathers' lies
And boy scouts ask "Where? Where do they go?"
They go to the country that they only know

Just like their meanings they lay between the lines
Between the borders their real countries hide
The strategigo's saw their advertise
Their strategy of being is one of in-your-face disguise

Ooohoohoooh through the roof, underground

And when their own walls they will a-crumble,
And all the systems will be discumbumbled,
Around the stump of bigotry, our own
Serebryanye zayazhy vodyat horovod!

Ooohoohoooh through the roof, underground

Serebryanye zayazy vodyat horovod!

Through the roof! And underground!
Through the roof! Underground!